Here I stand,
Upon the valley of solitariness
Uncertainty is upon on my shoulder
Insanity shatters my soul
Pain abound my fuss world

 

I hide in my shell of solemnity
And in my stillness, I weep
And whispers my song in vanity
I danced every rhythm and tunes of life
Grasping for something I didn’t know

 

One soulful night,
I gather fragments of my life
And skim every varlet of it
Regrets is all in my mind
      …on the things that passed
And whisper a crime to heaven
Pains shed my naked soul
Tears flows into its very core
As I see the measure of the fading pleasure

 

Mind awaits,
Real happiness,
     …contentment and serenity
As I walk,
…in this dreamy river of nothingness

-flor

Only time can tell
    When it will end?
        ...all these fighting against cruelty of life
        ...all these troubles and grief

Only time can tell
    When it will end?
        ...all these sufferings
        ...all these crying
        ...and when to stops these enormous torment

Only time can tell
    On what the future awaits us?
        ...all these uncertainty enfold us
        ...all these vanity that twine us

Only time can tell
        ...if we can still persist and prolong these fights
        ...if in the end, we can grasp the victory we always run to

    And only time can tell
        When does the harmony will reign us?
-by flor

Somewhere in Between

Tears were about to fall down
The time you walk into my world
You smiled at me and I felt so ashamed
You make my world so idyllic
Then, out of the blue all my troubles were gone
You name my tears into laughter’s

You are the reason in every smile
That sheer on my lips
You conveyed every happiness that linger with in
Unknowingly, you make this heart of mine to live again
Every day you put a life in every sense of me
Before I closed my eyes at night
I whispered a little prayer that it will last forever

But as the wind bristles from east to west
As the bees kissed in every flowers that blooms
And bequeathed them on their very eye
As the Barbara Streisand song “Some good things never last”
You suddenly flee in my arms

Tears cascade from my eyes
As I watched you walking away from me
I try to hold your hand and call your name
But you never turned at me
I tightly closed my eyes
And hope it was just a dream

But when I slowly opened my eyes
Hope to see you at my side
But you already gone
Tears keep on falling as it will never ceased
Twinge shatters my soul

Out of obliviousness, I ask questions
I yell and weep in the darkness
Melancholy enfold my bemused world
In silence I seek answers to myself
But you’re gone
And I’m left here somewhere in between

-flor

You sit next to me
With the eyes thats so lonely
Then I ask you Why
Without any word you just embraced me
And you said SHE LEFT ME
I'm speechless
I can't think of any soothing words
To allay your burden

I embraced you so tight
I ask myself why did she left him so easy
As I look into your weary eyes
Shadows of pain is there
Half smiling you said maybe Im not good to her

I just hold your hand and smiled at you
And said Maybe you are too good for her
You just sigh
Pain is all over in your eyes

As I stared with your nostalgic face
I wanted to tell you
How much I love you
And how painful is
Everytime you were with me
But you were talking about her

How much you love and treasured her
And why you can't see all those pains
Maybe Im just a mirror of a friend for you
Someone you can lean on to
Someone who can make you smile
Someone who will always be there when you cry

But, it will always be like this?
Loving and hoping that someday
You're gonna be mine...

--flor

Questions has been fleeing in my mind

Why does my heart e'er beat in the wrong person

Why I always long of an amiss love

Why do my heart whispers the name belong to others

Why can't I stop my eyes, glancing on you?

Why can't I stop my mind thinking of you?

Why do my lips longed for a kiss

Which never meant for me?

 

Every night I keep on dreaming of you

I dream how it feels to be wrapped by your arms

To be kissed by you

And to be next to you

Before I closed my eyes

I whisper I little prayer of hope

That you might dreamt of me

And you may recognized me one day

 

In my heart I hold that hope

That all my fantasies will become into reality

And my dreams would become into real one

And someday I can hold you forever

And not only in my dreams..

I’m crazy, messed up, retarded, mentally challenged freak. So, in lieu of this and all who share my fate; I present:

 

LIST OF QOUTES for the Psychologically Challenged

 

There is no great GENIUS without a mixture of madness

                                                                                                -Aristotle

Before setting out on revenge, first dig no graves. It saves time later.

                                                                                                -James Howlett/Wolverine

I’m not crazy; I’m just a little unwell

                                                          -Matchbox 20

Your brain must have been constructed unbelievably wrong

                                                                                                -Ishida Urvuu (Bleach)

Tell me, how it feels to live in a constant haze of stupidity

                                                                                                -Hiei (Ghost Fighter)

You can’t help it if you’re an IDIOT!!!

                                                     -Batman

I’m hungry. Therefore I am!

                                            -Garfield

The difference bet. Stupidity and genius is that genius has its limits

                                                                                                -Albert Einstein

My life has no purpose, no direction, no aims, no meaning, and yet I’m happy. I can’t figure it out. What am I doing right?

                                                                                                                                                -Snoopy (Peanuts)

Sanity? I don’t remember having such a thing to begin with

                                                                                                -Zaraki Kenpachi(Bleach)

 You know its bad sign when I’m de voice of reason

                                                                                -Gambit/Remy LeBeau (X-Men)

 

Yay for the Psychologically Challenged..hehehe..(This from Danielle-PHR writer)

                                               

When I am afraid, I will trust in You. In god whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid (Psalm 56: 3-4)

 

Whenever tragedy strikes, it’s easy to harden our hearts and cry out, “God, why did you let this happen? Have you ever caught yourself calling God to account? Have questioned the way He seemed to be working in your life?”  If we could but see life from God’s perspective, how different our attitudes would be. How much more quickly could we grasp the plan that lies just beyond our reach? How much more could we trust, realizing that His way is better than ours because He sees the end from the beginning? Ultimately the answer lies in one word - TRUST. God loves us and we can entrust to Him our lives, hopes even our futures. When difficulty knocks, it’s we who are on trial – not GOD. The more you know about the character of GOD, the easier it will be for you to say, “God knows best and I’ll trust HIM no matter what”

As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts (ISAIH 55:9)

 

God is precisely on time. His timing however, is different from ours. He is bound neither by time nor space. Have you learned that is impossible to fully understand God’s timing in our lives? Dr. Martin Lloyd Jones wrote: He may sometimes do the opposite of what we anticipate. Yet, it is fundamental principle in life and walk of faith that we must always be prepared for the unexpected when we dealing with GOD.

 

God looks at life from different perspective. He’s the timekeeper, and when we think HE is late, He’s apt to show up, and then we learn our time in his hands. When it looked like Jesus was in late in arriving. He showed up and raised His friend Lazarus from the dead.

 God is neither early nor late, He’s exactly on time!!

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me (Psalm 23:4)

Have you experienced a time when everything was going just right and then for no apparent reason everything went wrong? Whenever misfortune strikes, the questions usually asked is: “Why did God let this happen to me?” The Bible gives us insight into suffering. Sometimes God allows us to suffer so we can down and take stock of our lives. It maybe that you are now walking through an hour of darkness so that you will find God’s Son as the light of your life. Jesus knew what it meant to suffer he experienced physical pain, the loneliness of being forsaken by his friends, and the agony of facing death. While it is true He lived a sinless life. He was still human and can understand your hurts. The Bible says, “The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him (Nahum 1:7)”. Have you made the wonderful discovery of taking refuge in the LORD and trusting HIM when trouble knocks at your door? Do not hesitate to Him for grace and strength.
(I got this message from the book given by my friend. The book entitled “JUST FOR TODAY GUIDELINES FOR LIVING” by Harold J. Sala - a very amazing book).